One More Night by Charlie Novak

Author:Charlie Novak [Novak, Charlie]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: MM romance, romance, Short Story
Publisher: Amazon
Published: 2020-05-31T23:00:00+00:00

Chapter Two

Harry

As I watched Jack and Bea walk arm in arm towards the yellow door of our room, I couldn’t help but feel two distinct emotions. Neither of which I liked.

The first was relief that I’d managed to get through seeing my mother unscathed.

And the second was the realisation of something I’d known all along but that I’d continued to deny for reasons I didn’t want to examine: I was a coward.

I’d know Jack for three years, and I’d been in love with him for exactly two years and eleven months of that time. But I still refused to do a fucking thing about it because I was terrified of what my family would say. I’d known my parents weren’t that impressed when I’d come out, despite what they’d said, but I’d never thought they’d be as bad as they were. Or maybe it wasn’t even that it was the fact I liked men at all; it was the fact that I didn’t like the right men.

I’d always been attracted to people who brimmed over with life and pulled me along with them, bubbling over with joy and sparkling with wit and sharpness. The sort of people to whom life was an adventure to be savoured, and who found beauty in the small moments other people let pass them by. The problem was those weren’t the sort of people who usually spent their days in investment banks or corporate law offices, working until midnight and getting up at five to hit the gym.

I’d thought that by going to New York I’d be able to run away from my feelings, like I’d always done. But my feelings had gotten on the plane with me, and all I could do was spent my time moping around the city, on my own, wondering what Jack was doing.

My friends had tried to take me clubbing and had introduced me to cute boys with playful smiles who’d have been happy to take my loneliness away for a while. And my mother had tried to introduce me to a line of men she considered suitable, usually the sons of family friends. They were usually all the same—frightfully boring or the sort of man I knew couldn’t be faithful for more than five minutes. I wasn’t against open relationships; they just weren’t for me. I needed someone I could spend my life with, who I could share my dreams and my secrets with, and who wouldn’t be afraid to nudge me out of the box I’d put myself in.

None of them were who I wanted.

Because none of them were Jack.

I sighed, shaking my head and trying to get a handle on my feelings. I knew I still loved Jack, but I doubted he felt the same way about me. How could he after the way I’d treated him? I’d just left, like the coward I was, telling him he meant nothing when my whole body had screamed at me that it wasn’t true. I was surprised he hadn’t told me to fuck off as soon as I’d walked into the pub a couple of weeks ago.

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